I keep smiling because God keep blessing me..

Jus one of those days..... damn shawty got that gud hair..lol

and I smile when there's a purpose..
My emotions show on my face...
If i'm angry you'll know.
If i'm happy you'll know...
If i'm sad you'll know...

Right now... im in and out happiness....

Dont feel like being bothered...

Just wanna be left along... Im annoyed.....

Gota and wanna spend time with myself

Away from this selfish world


Arghhh I just wish I was back in Trinidad

No troubles no worries...

People are so selfish these days...

Its all about them

Well now its all about me

So leave me let me be

Untill I'm ready to speak

Take my time...

Boy when you step off,
Wet from out the shower baby,
I want chya to lay down,
just stay naked,
Now Im starin for an hour babe,
Oh,
I got your back up against the wall,
I got strength,
Wont let you fall,
Make me bloom,
Like a flower babe.

I just wanna
Take my time
As handsome as you are,
Think you're ready,
Boy I wanna,
Do you right,
I just wanna give you what you need,
Baby boy,
Take my time,
Just do me,
Do you right...

...dudes I tell ya..

I don't know why dudes who have girlfriends.. Try to talk to me... Im not up for being a sideline.. So you can keep it moving...
You had a chance to talk to me.. But you choose her.. So why are you talking to me saying you miss me?.. Wish something could of happen between us... Oooo the water aint greener on the other side like you thought it would be? Or was it because I was to real for your ass so you had to test the waters?..... Please dismiss me with the bullshyt because I dont have time for games...

So cold.. CHRIS BROWN

...If you ever see her
If you ever meet her
If you ever get a chance to sit down, talk to her
Then tell her it's so cold
It's so cold, it's so cold
Here without her
And tell her I miss her
Tell her I need her
Tell her I want her
I really want her to come back home, back to keep me warm
Tell her I'm sorry, I'm really sorry
Can you forgive me?
Please forgive me
And come back home, keep me safe and warm...

1 Corinthians 13:4

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails.

: Man some of those things are hard to do...:

Kinda freaky...

My lil niece... Looks a lil like me when I was little.. But my head was bigger..lol... She gonna be a lil heart breaker..

.... Hold ur belongings tight.....

So I guess someone knew I needed a car..So they left their keys on the trunk.. Gud thing I'm not a wicked person. Cause I would of took the brand new Camry to the strip shop and get some money.. But I turn the keys in....smh

Nothing shall come between these.
Because they are truly a part of me.
I need them.. Like a crackhead needs crack.. I call them when my heart is broken... When I need some one to listen to me and have my back.. No matter the fact.. But if I'm wrong they'll tell me the truth.. They never lie to me... Like some others do. I hope they keep being true.....
To these three girls..... I LOVE YOU....ALWAYS AND FOREVER..

ThrowBack

boredom always SEEM TO HIT ME....

Window seat... Currently Jammin....

Window Seat lyrics

Wish you was closer...
So I can hold ya...
So I can feel your heart beat....
You run through my mind like all the time

One minute u get on my nerves
The next minute.. U make me smile...

I can truly say I LOVE YOU.....

Just shut the fuck up... And kiss me...
You scared?
I dont bite.....
Unless you want me to....

I'll kiss you all night

I'll hug you real tight

We dont gotta make love tonite

But I would like a long fucking make out session.....

But wait... put some chap stick on....

And you'll never know what lies behind my eyes... what runs through my thoughts... Until you approach me.. Until you talk to me.. Until you take a walk with me... ... To try to get to know me... Then you'll understand me.. And learn to love me...

Kids are our furture....

....When I was little I always wanted to be a doctor.. Never thought I would end up going to school to become a teacher.... And I tell you its a wonderful thing.. They make me smile.. laugh... Sometimes get on ma nerves.. but their amazing... Wont trade it for the world....

.....I see through your false pretenses

... my mind tend to make up some wierd shyt... imagine that...

Travis wasn’t an ordinary ant living in New York City. He lived in the streets of Harlem, under a tuna fish can where ants got robbed and rapped everyday for their bread. They couldn’t even live an abstemious life because they were dirt poor. Four other ants lived with him including his mother. His mother didn’t really care for him because she was busy running the streets selling her body for crack. Travis was churlish, musty and could only see out of one eye. His friend Harass took his disability and used it to his advantage. He resorted to the worst flattery and chicanery to get money from the rich people who passed by. When this strategy didn’t work Harass took it upon himself to attack them. When he was through getting what he wanted he would run off leaving poor Travis to suffer. Travis couldn’t run because he couldn’t see where to go. He was left all alone until Harass came back.
One winter night Travis was against the tuna fish can chilling with Harass and his crew. Harass was cold so he took Travis jacket from him. That night Travis mother Pasty came home early from her routine in the streets. She saw Harass with Travis’ jacket and wondered why he had it. Pasty asked Travis was everything all right but his trembling hands belied his calm voice. She was acumen when it came to matters like this. Pasty was known to be a bellicose crack head fighter. She ran up on Harass grabbed him by the collar and punched him dead in the mouth. She then took the jacket off him and put it back on Travis. This was the first time Pasty showed care for Travis. This brought a smile across his face as he looked through the one eye he could see from. That night when Travis went to sleep he thought about ways to abrogate Harass because he was sick of the way he was treating him. He was determine to do something about the horrible situation so he knelt on his knees and prayed to the only one who could help him. Her name was Zuma a witch for good and evil. He told her his plan and she was happy with it. That same night Zuma went in the dreams of Harass and asked him why he was treating Travis this way. Harass replied circumlocution using more than necessary words. This caused Zuma to get very upset and cast a spell upon Harass. He was not able to walk until he apologized to Travis. Harass refused to abjure causing……….
Too be continued…
What would end up being the price for Harass actions? Will he die? Will Travis finally have an auspicious beginning? Stay tune for more.

...Around da world

And I wonder why I cant sleep
My thoughts keep racing
I'm miss you
I'm missing him

Then my emotions change ..
I don't give two fucks

One min. I like you..
The next min. I dont

Maybe if you show me truth
I'll fall in love

I want you to chase me.....
I dont do the chasing..
Damn my mind is racing...
Jumping from one feeling to another

I fucking hate you....

Just Like The waters.... I aint felt this way in years...

Moving down the streams of my lifetime
Pulls the fascination in my sleeve
Cooling off the fire of my longing
Boiling off my cold within his heat
Melting down the walls of inhibition
Evaporating all of my fears
Baptizing me into complete submission
Dissolving my condition with his tears

Our love's like honey, sticky and slow
Drip drop like rain drops, boy, I gotta have some more
Your love's like ice cream, creamy and slow
Tick tock like my clock, baby, Ima wind my body slow

Baby I’m not surprised.... You said just what I thought you would... And it hurts I ain’t gon’ lie ...But it doesn’t hurt as bad as it could.......

We live pass five...

True....

Gota stay true...

• To my self
• To GOD
• Family
• Friends
  
• My beliefs
• Dang.. in everything I do..
  

Theres a blessing in every lesson learnt....

When your TRULY BLESSED..All you can do is smile, praise and thank GOD..

Press Play....

The sweet smell of your cologne

Sit still in my memory

Reminiscing, Deep thinking

As you’re soft lips suppress mine

Creating a sense of warmth throughout my body and mind

The touch of your hand caressing my thighs

Just led me to fantasize

You getting in between them thighs

Licking to sunrise

Sticking to sunset

Stroking your dick until I start dripping wet.

But wait it’s not all about me

I’ll get on one knee

Letting your head insert me

As I play a sweet melody

Let my hands stroke them keys

Until you freeze and bust one of these.

Oooo your nectar is so sweet

Can we press repeat?

Press pause

Stimulating your body will happen in time

Let me stimulate your soul and intrigue your mind

I’m not in a rush to claim what’s not mine

But in due time we’ll see if its meant to be

And we’ll make sweet love to R and B.

• Urrrrrrgggh... He made me mad today....
• 1.. Why are men so difficult...
• 2. They know what women expect... but yet still they dont do what we want.. but want us to comply with their every need and want.. I'm sorry but u need to meet me half way...

Bad habits.......

So I told my self since I'm about to be 21 its time for me to make a change Some things I use to do.. I don't wanna do anymore...

1.. smoke 2.. try to not have sex untill marriage ..( yea a tough one) 3. drink all the damn time 4.. curse like a sailor horse 5. And put my wall up...

Jane::


Had a whole of her
She got the best of her
Many days and many nights
She dont know why she let her in her life
She dont know why he introduced it to her
But she must admit.. they did have some fun nights
Just like good sex
It was amazing
She puff puff and choke
She ended up making her broke
So she put a stop to her.. A stop to this life
she know she'll find someone else to do her right....

Love...

Love is the hardest habit to break and the most difficult to satisfy.

a grandmother's love... is so good

My GrandFather.... My love....

Leave me Be....

My anger exceeds the length of frustration.

I feel a cold rush in my body

My heart suddenly beats faster

My eyes begin to water
I feel as my fingers come together clenching into a fist

Wanting to penetrate directly between her eyes

Looking at her makes me disgust

Causing only my anger to increase rapidly

Turning into hatred

My skin crawls as she stands next to me

I wish she would just leave

Leave me the fuck alone

Pretend I never exist

Like the way she acts when he's around

When she speaksI feel my happiness decrease

Nothing she says is ever positive

Just a negative thing in my life

I wish I could just eliminate it

Demolish it out of existence...

A life....

I wonder why we cry so many tears
When a life is taken
Shouldn’t we think it’s a beautiful blessing?
Ended the person’s pain
But only for one to gain
The many nights she was fighting
Cause she had an addition
Coke she was wanting
Dick she was fien -in
Or when her dad left
After he inserts the semen.
She repeated the cycle
By having you.
Your father was a drug dealer
Hitting block 40 and 8
When he came home
He expected her to have him a plate.

...Lost Love...

And I sometimes look up at the sky
And wonder why did we fall apart
What made us give up?
Something that we cherished so deeply within our souls
Within our hearts
And I sometimes shear tears when I’m locked up in the room all alone
O when I’m out for the world to see
I shear silent tears

Most nights I can’t sleep because I wonder where you are.
I wonder if you think or me. Think about the things we shared for so many years.
But I had to let my love go for you because you let me down to many times.And even though I knew you loved me. I knew you loved someone else. And I was right, because you married someone else….

Crown Royal On Ice

Alcohol was something he discovered
Made him feel good inside, not bothered.
Started with a cup, ended with a bottle
There wasn’t any drink that he wouldn’t swallow
You wonder why he spend so much time drinking
Because it wasn’t to UN wine.
You can look in his eyes, and see the pain inside
He drank to demolish the conflict he dealt with him self
When all he had to do was ask for some help.
Help will come running all the time BUT
Why the fuck would you drink to the point that you want to kill your mind?
Kill your soul?
My brother don’t you want to see till old?

These Social Drugs....

Flashbacks of the night she met her.
Never thought it would be the worst thing she discovered
She watched as he broke it down, stacked it and rolled it fat
She lit it, hit it and passed it back.
It took a few seconds for her to adjust to the fact
That her mind was getting an attack
Her eyes water as the smoke rose
She coughed a few times
Trigging her spine
He looked at her with a smile on his face
And said to her,” Ha never thought you would try this today”

As years go by, this drug she seek
It was put in her mind, that it would make her feel complete
It was put in her thoughts that her pain would seize
But she realized the pain increase once the high deceased.

This thing call love......

I never understood it.. I just kept it moving. Laced up ma shoes and took a run for it. He didnt hit it and quit it. Matter of fact he never got a chance to be in it. He just wanted to reach for my mind and end up getting my heart with it.

Action Speaks Louder....

I Hurt, I Cry

I remember what u said that night.

It was just a lie because you did it with her the next night.
I tried to push it back. But it went forward.

When you said those words,

I had to run under.

Hide undercover.

Because the pain inside evolved.
Just the thought,
Of you making love to her that night.
The many times you said you wouldn’t.
But in reality you did it.
You didn’t fuck and quit it.
U know the bitch got feelings for you.
So why would you do it?
Why would you screw it?
Fuck up something with me and you
But the truth of the matter…. Your thoughts didn’t see me
It forgot me
It left you
Even after I said I love you.